So tuition for school is going to be about $33,000 next year. I got $5,000 in Stafford subsidized and unsubsidized loans.
$5,000.
$5-motherfucking-thousand. Which means I'll have to come up with over $25,000 out of pocket. Even with my mom's help (which only exists because my grandma died. I'd personally rather have her back), that's too much. I don't know what the hell happened to my Out-of-State Scholarship. It was supposed to be refundable all four years as long as I didn't drop below 3.5 (which I didn't) and as long as I remained a full-time student (which I did). So I don't know what the problem is, but I contacted the Bursar's office and hopefully they can set it straight.
And of course talking to Mom is no help at all. That woman has an innane gift to make everything seem my fault, and to make me feel worse than I already do.
I dunno. I guess I'll just keep applying for scholarships and try to get a job in New York this summer to save up some money, try to get a job next year, maybe look into something like AmeriCorps or....something. I dunno. We'll see. I can't NOT go to college. That is not an option. I've worked too hard to get here to get it taken away from me.
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That's the spirit! I believe in you. Meanwhile, after finals are over, take a look into Fastweb and such sites. It may seem a little useless, but it's worth a try.
ReplyDeleteBe confident- that's what all the employers like to see~!
Hello, Anna. Maybe your school just made a mistake, or maybe they process the out of state scholarship stuff through the summer time? Hopefully everything gets straightened out.
ReplyDeleteAnd Jessica's right about Fastweb and other scholarship sites. They're pretty helpful.
I believe in you!