I'm sorry that most every post that I write is so depressing, for being so whiny and such a complaint. I think it just feels better to write everything down, sometimes get a response about what to do.
Midterms are down for this month. At least its winding down, for that much I'm thankful for. Unfortunately, other things are winding up.
I never understood it that much when people told me that having two roommates would be continual drama. I didn't understand it when Irene told me that living with two girls would be a nightmare. In truth, my freshman year was pretty nice. We each had our own interests, but when we did get together, we could talk. Stress, deaths, sickness. I was all okay. This year, living with friends, we were even closer. Of course, we also started to understand things about each other, pet peeves and whatnot. I can't say I accept them all, but for me, they're easy to overlook. Once in a while, I appreciate it a lot if they were conscious about it too.
The problem with living with two headstrong people is, I get to see them clash and I'm in the middle. To side with either would be unfair, to be in the middle is a situation I've been too familiar with. Remember sophomore year and the Zach and Sarah? How we learned to deal with them when things got too hot? It's more than that over here.
I feel like I should get caught in the middle, I shouldn't take sides, and I shouldn't even bother with this problem since, it's not mine. But on the other hand, it's happening under one roof, so to say. Also, I am slightly biased. The principle of the matter is that one of them is being selfish and unfair, despite what she thinks is a trivial matter. It's affecting personal opinion of her character, which in turn, our friendship.
On another note, as much as I want to avoid the matter, it's staring at me straight the face. I know I agreed to something stupid, but, it's not me to be this person. I have to talk with Ryan and soon. Maybe I'm just better at being friends with people.
Sometimes, I do get tired of being the listener, I want to talk too.
The shit hath hitith the fan.. ith - 10 Things I Hate About You. Movie night anyone?
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Your voice isn't as small as we all let on, and when you want to be heard, you can, and if you feel like it's the time, maybe it is time to raise your voice and tell them to shut the fuck up for two seconds and point out to them why they are both being fucking dumbasses and here's the perfect solution! And then you walk out before they can gang up on you. That's what I would do anyway, which is never the reasonable thing to do, but it seems to work when I've tried it.
ReplyDeleteTalk to Ryan.
Call anytime, like I said, if you feel like you're not being listened to. My ears are open and ready. :)
Stay strong, Jessica! <3
Thank you....You're my anchor, my rock in a vicious tide.
ReplyDeleteAs much as I love the status quo, I think the three of us might not be roommates next year, that is - in three months time. I wonder how that would be like~ we've gotten so close, and broken apart at the same time.
Oh well, if it's going to happen -full charge ahead!
Three weeks, and then movie nights will happen, my friend. Stay strong. Its ALWAYS a good thing to get your thoughts out, so they don't fester up inside you like a dream deferred (Huth reference, ftw).
ReplyDeleteIf I were you, I would remind both parties involved that there are, in fact, three people living under the same roof, not two, and that they should be considerate of EVERYONE'S personal boundaries and attitudes. Your living situation can cause unneeded stress that could very well negatively affect not only your schoolwork but your friend dynamic (as you know). They need to understand that. Its not fair that you should be put in the middle of this. You have every reason in the world to speak out and defend your right to live in a peaceful environment. However you want to go about it is up to you. I have faith in you. :)
You are strong, Jessica, and I know that you will be able to pull through this and emerge shining all the more brightly because of it. I'll see you in three weeks. <3