Emily: Even Artichokes Have Hearts

This is my first entry since my life is pretty boring compared to everyone else's it seems =]

I started out my Merced College semester pretty jazzed. I was excited for the classes and the new environment. But I guess the excitement has worn off by now. It surprisingly feels lonely at college at times. I know of about three people that go to Merced with me but I never see them around. I thought maybe I could have a repeat like my freshman year in high school and befriend a handful of people... but now it's nearing the end of October and I have yet to make any new friends. I'm convinced that I'm constantly comparing everyone to the friends I already have/had and I keep looking for someone to fill that empty void of all my friends. I have tried to talk to people before but it never gets anywhere. I keep hearing stories of how all of my friends have made friends already in their new college environment and honestly, I envy them. I've already chosen my classes for the next semester and all I have to do is wait to see if I could get into any of them. Hopefully my luck will change.

I suppose I can try contacting people I know that are still in Turlock but I never hung out with those people outside of school. I'm afraid it would be just to awkward. But I guess that's another reason why I have an extremely hard time making friends: I'm far too shy to take risks like that.

Kevin has been the only one I've been "hanging out" with. I mean I should be thankful that at least I have someone, but it still feels weird to me to be talking to only one person outside my immediate family on a regular basis.

I don't miss high school, but I do miss the interaction I had with people everyday.

In other news, I looked up Jacksonville, Arizona on google maps one day. It doesn't exist. Stephanie Meyer lies. Also, I officially crept out of my artistic "dry spell" as you might say it. I'm finally drawing up stuff outside of classes and let me tell you- it's good to be back.