AJ: The End

That sounds ominous.
Or, maybe it just depends on how you're feeling at the moment. In the fairytale world, "the end" means relief, the happily ever after. Or maybe the end of all the conflict, the unpleasant events of our lives. But it's never really the end, is it? So, to return to the point that I earlier mentioned- it just sounds ominous.
At first I was just referring to the quote that I had on my wall paper.

"Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end" ~ Unknown
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Today was the last of the midterms that I had this week. I had 3 days worth of midterms. consecutively. I'm done with it; it's the end, I'll be okay now. In reality, I'm still waiting for the results, there are at least one more midterms to go and a final. It's not the end. The semester's not the end, graduation isn't the end. Further thoughts- this quote is actually quite depressing in some ways. It means that things will never be okay? And when things are okay, am I to "end" it right there? Or, is it this forced emotion to just accept the ways things are and being at peace at the end that makes everything "okay". Furthermore, I don't want "okay," I want "meaningful," "worthwhile," "extraordinary," and "epicness"- why settle for the "okay"?

This is too much analysis. I think I've destroyed the whole intention of the quote for myself now. Maybe someone else has another take on this?

Just as an update on what I'm up to these days. I'll just say that I'm sick. I'm also sick of being sick. So I'm going to have my brain tell my body to get better. My roommate learned in psych and told me that if you think you're not sick, you won't be sick. I'm giving it a try. Being sick during midterms is a pretty horrible experience. To make up for it, I'll have to dedicate myself 100% more to my next midterms. I'll do it! I promise.
Music, Math, Ochem midterms are over, that means- start studying NOW! Or at least after this Friday, I need a study break. =-=''

P.S
Families are a wonderful thing. My baby cousin was recently (yesterday) diagnoised with ALL, Accute Lympoblasic Leukemia. (Oh look, Leukemia has "leu" in it. This is a very horrible observation and I feel ashamed to mention noting it. I'd ignore that pun now... )
He's currently undergoing chemotherapy already, and my family is flocking to the hospital and my uncle's to help out. I guess what I'm asking are for prayers- or something of that sort in mind. What a year this is turning out to be.......