Zach: And End and a Beginning

Hey

So I'mma talk about the Beginning first. Tomorrow is the first day of school. That's kinda exciting I guess. Even if it is a national holiday and we should have the day off, but whatever. We always start on MLK Day. I'm over it. It snowed today/ last night. None of it stuck, but it was fun to walk in.

I don't really have anything else to talk about in the beginning section I guess, but I will come back to that.

So the End. Andrew and I are no longer anything more than friends at all. We are still good friends, but nothing is going to be more than friends. We both understand how the other one feels, and we both like each other (as people, not so much romantically anymore), but we aren't going to get back together. I don't think that things are going to change in that area of my life for a while. So although I still like him, I'mma move on. Still gonna spend time with him, but I am going to not think of any of it romantically anymore. It was nice while it lasted, but it's over now so.... there.

You guys have probably by now noticed all of the videos I have sent on facebook. Kinda because I am a little torn up by the whole Andrew thing. I have been unsure about us for a little while now, but we hadn't talked about it until today, so now we are both on the same page. But anyway. Making videos for other people helps me to keep my head clear, so... I did that.

But I guess this ending is the beginning of something else. I'mma take some time for myself now. I kind of talked about this in my last blog, but I have been feeling kind of empty for a while now, and I need some time to be selfish. I am not going to do anything for anyone else for a while. I am not driving anyone to the store. I am not ordering food for people (even if they pay for it). I am not planning anything unless it is for myself and no one else. I kind of feel terrible doing it, but I really need some time to be selfish. I need to do something for myself, and I don't need to give any more of myself to anyone else until I have some of it back for myself.

I love you guys. And I miss you.