Anna: Sad Face

Bad news, people. The way things are looking, I'm not gonna be coming home for summer break.

A few reasons why:

1) I have zero money. Which means my trip to New York to visit my sister is being paid for by my mom (thanks to her inheritance money from grandma) and she can't afford to jet me across the country multiple times.

2) My sister wants me to stay the whole summer. And when she wants something, she wants it and there'll be hell to pay if someone tells her no.

3) Mom wants me to stay the whole summer. Because she wants to forge bonds and create a stable family for my nieces.

A few reasons why I agreed to this instead of putting up a fight:

1) I have zero money. See above.

2) My sister really has a right to ask me to stay for the whole summer. By the time I finish up my first year of college in June, I will have not seen her or Xiana for almost three years. That is not okay. And, I haven't even met Savannah yet, and I will not have met the new baby who is being born in March.

3) I'm going to New York. Its happening. I'm determined to see my sister again. The last time I saw her, she was walking away from me, pregnant again and running for her life. I need to see her again. The last time I saw Xiana was when she was getting in the car, excited because she was having such an adventure, not even aware that she might never see us again. I haven't met Savannah, as I stated above. Both my grandparents are gone, I don't really talk to my aunts or uncle anymore, I'm so distanced from mom....I want my family back. And I refuse to let what happened in my family happen to those girls. They deserve to be happy. I will be there for them.


So I'm sorry everyone. Believe me, I'm not ecstatic about not seeing you guys this summer. I will probably cry, a lot, and message you everyday and get jealous because you will all be making wonderful memories without me. But this is my family and they have to come first. I'm sorry, but this has to happen. I won't be right without it.

But I love you all. :) We'll all pull through somehow. Because I feel like I am purposefully (maybe semi-subconciously) keeping myself closed off to all the people here, all the potential friends I could make, because I don't want to replace you guys in any way, shape, or form. As far as friends (and indeed, as second family goes) you guys are all I need. I couldn't ask for any people anywhere who are better than you.