Anna: Busy Little Bee

When am I satisfied when I don't feel like pulling my hair out or setting myself on fire? Oh yeah, that's right. Never.

WELP, its the ending of week 7. Meaning that there are three weeks until finals (oh my God). But I'm not going to think about depressing and terrifying things like that because I have other things to occupy my time with. Things such as the human trafficking awareness event that's going down in a week and a half. Things such as getting food, speakers, visuals, and tables for that event confirmed sometime before the day it happens. :/ But such is life, right?

Lets see....I was elected "President" of MUN for next year (we have a different term for it...Secretary-General. Mwuahahaha.), so that's exciting. Its good to know that some people at least think that I'm leadership material. :P I'm officially staying in Portland over the summer to try to save money/by some miracle or fluke of nature find a job/take summer classes if my mother and I decide to invest in that. So on that note, I probably won't be heading back to Turlock until next year's Spring Break or even next summer. Sadness. But life must go on. And I really need to stay in one place for a while instead of running every which way. Plus, Portland is BEAUTIFUL in the summer! It makes all those months of rain and misery worth it.

(Ahem. That's a hint for someone to come up and visit me if they can.)

I'm seriously contemplating taking an international law class. Oh, and I'm officially starting Arabic either this summer or next Fall. I'm excited.

And that, folks, is officially everything that is going on with me right now. Not TOO exciting, but not bash-my-head-against-the-wall boring either. I'm content.

I love you all.

Heaven: What can you do with a

Today I was feeling sentimental, so I took out my old journals from Mr. Tribble's class and started reading through a couple of them and I found this one:

"Love is being there for your friends. Not just there physically, but emotionally as well. Love is never giving up on someone, no matter how long you go without talking to them, being able to see them after weeks or even months and being able to talk about anything and everything, being able to talk to them like you saw them yesterday. Love is giving someone the space they need to be themselves, to pursue their dreams, while still being a part of their life. Trust is love. Love is not choosing sides. Love is being able to see past flaws and mistakes to accept someone as they are. Love is accepting disappointment and being there no matter what. John Lennon is my love, and Peter Pan and Orion the Hunter and Jack. But John Lennon was my first love and you never forget your first. Love pretty much sucks, but sometimes it's pretty awesome too."

The first half really reminded me of the situation that we are all in right now, and I thought it was pretty cool that I wrote that before it was so. Anyway, I just wanted to share that.

School is really stressful. My car broke down and my head and heart too, but it's alright, it'll all work out. :)

I love you pretty people!

Anna: Very quickly...

I feel like I can't really take care of myself anymore. People have to walk me through what to do, or how I should act in order to stay healthy and in one piece.

Like, my friend literally had to type out what to do for my infected ear piercing. My ankle's been hurting for a good week now and I'm not really sure what to do about it except go buy a brace for it. And of course I don't eat or sleep regularly when school gets going, so friends will have to remind me to sleep or eat.

Eh. Its nice to know that I can rely on people if something goes wrong, but its so demoralizing at the same time. I dunno. I've felt like more of a child these past months than I ever have before.

i love you.

AJ : Just a Thing for Thoughts

Here's something that caught my attention today. It's kind of true, kind of outrageous in parts, and a little bit depressing. I just took some time today to think about what parts of this applied to me. We're all starting to turn twenty!

http://thoughtcatalog.com/2010/how-to-be-a-20-something/

Heaven: The sun was shining on the valley!

I HAVE SEEN THE SUN FOR TWO DAYS! It's great, it's beautiful, I'm going to go outside and play in it as soon as I'm done writing this blog, but you guys come first.

Spring break WAS AWESOME! I love you guys so much. It felt so good to not have to do anything but hang out with you guys. Sorry I was in such a bad mood. I don't know what was going on in my head, but something sour was going and it was no good, but I'm cool now! My dad got a new dog yesterday, he's a cowdog, we call him Deets, he's a good boy and Dodger loves him, but the Frieda doesn't and I haven't seen her since last night, poor dear, I hope she comes home.

Zachery-- Sonny also said, "I WANNA SAY HI TO ZACH!" but he wasn't around the video at all, so I thought I should let you know via blog.

Played a surprise show on Saturday, filled in for a good ol' boy, Willy Tea, which was crazy, definitely one of the hardest spots to fill, but I filled it and people like it, and I've been getting asked to play all kindsa more shows, and I'm stoked, I just gotta write some new material so I have a wider range of songs to play. I guess that's what all musician do, though, Good Luck's been playing the same songs for three years now and nobody gets tired of 'em, but these story-songs are different and I'm gonna have to keep writing anyway.

Jessica Leu-- this is America, people are trying to teach you how to pick a profession so you can get a job, this is an institution, everything is regimented, everything has to be known before we're grown, if you want to highlight your hair or take more English classes or cook some fucking good food for some fucking good people or go live in a cave or blow bubbles or dance naked in the woods, YOU DO IT and you don't let anything stop you. We are the masters of ourselves.

I hate school, I don't learn what I want to anymore, I only learn what I'm told to, so I slack, but you know, I'm gonna be the next Mr. Huth, I swear it. My life's been going.

Guess what, the sun's been out, and it's supposed to be out for the rest of the week, so I think Dodger and I are going to go for a big walk right now and I will shirk my responsibilities because I feel like it.

AJ: Restlessness

I just have to say, I second Anna. Spring Break was amazing. Spending time with everyone, almost every day like we'd never left for college was therapy. It makes me miss everyone even more though, especially since I didn't really get to see everyone or spend enough time together. Sad.
Now that I'm back out here though, I'm feeling pretty lethargic. I don't want to do work, except I've just spend about five hours of this morning writing a lab report that I'm pretty sure made little, to no sense. I also got about 2 and a half hours of sleep last night. I apologize for the rambling now. ^-^
Just to mention it out loud - I want to just leave everything that I'm doing behind and try something else right now. English major. Culinary school. Take up photography- with film, negatives, and everything. I want a hair cut.I want to highlight my hair and then change the colors of the highlights every month or so. I want to do something completely different. Is this a disease? It's catching on fast.
Why do I have so many ideas of what I want to do in the future? I have so much on my plate right now, I have to get through it before I reach the future plans. Gah,I need the determination fight past this monstrosity named organic chemistry!

Wheeeeee. Whirl. Dance. I'm going to find myself some chocolate and get back to work.
Toodles~