Jessica (AJ) - And the world keeps on spinning

I really thought that the hardest thing that I had to face this week was my Chem final. The three hour long test that's worth 40% of my grade; the hardest most complicated problems they can come up with to make you doubt every move you make. I made it through Saturday's night final with minimal damage. It was even fun, afterwards. 4 hours of hot cocoa, smores, and Wii.
Then a small movie night with Glee and Jackie Chan's Adventures and oversleeping.
The only thing I'd had to worry about this morning was editing some essays, and practice for my singing final. Math's wasn't until Friday.
I finally recieved my sword today.
I have plans to watch Wicked after break.
I'll get to go shopping for Christmas gifts tomorrow with friends.
I'll get to come home after one week.
But my view has shifted slightly. It just won't seem as exciting, and merry anymore. Like there's a pane of glass blocking, numbing the impact of every emotion. But behind the glass -
I took a long walk today
And I played the piano, for a good two and a half hours.
All the time for me to think things through, how to comfort my mom now insteading of needing her to hold up everything.

My cousin made a really good choice though, when she decided not to tell me anything until after my final today. I might have been a bit too worried and nervous otherwise to even sing correctly. As if I wasn't nervous about sight singing enough by itself.
So- my grandma had a heart attack, or something related to that yesterday morning. It's a rather critical condition; she's in ICU, but my mom and aunts and uncles have all found the earliest flights to Hong Kong. They'll all be there by tomorrow. They're all afraid.
It's been rather ironic. The fact that they have been planning to visit this winter. Only, not because of this, not in this way.
I think I can be slightly thankful though. That it will be Christmas break, and I will soon be able to get through this with family and friends, very very soon.

A lot has happened this year to all of us. So much change.

Zach - A Day in the Life

So I don't know if I have mentioned this before or not, and as it is midnight I do not particularly feel like looking back on my former posts, I will tell you again, for the first time. I have created some "academic" goals for myself, some of which have been completed. I set out to see the stars under the Star Trees, which are the biggest trees on any college campus, I think. I also want to follow squirrel until I find where the squirrels hide the pocket change. But today's academic goal is a different one. Today, I will experience an entire day, starting now. I will be awake for all of Sunday.

I will be up from midnight to midnight, no sleeping. and I will get to experience an entire day, from end to end. I am kinda excited, even though this means I won't be sleeping for a while. I will be letting you know how this goes when the day ends, until then, I'll be staying awake.

So the twenty-four hours are up. And I meant to write the end of this seventeen hours ago, but then I discovered I was tired and had three finals today. So I went to bed and slept for twelve hours.

The twenty-four hours passed really quickly. I started off by finishing a short story for my creative writing class final, which I think turned out fairly well, not the best, but certainly not bad. Whenever I got tired I played a game of hand ping-pong with one of the several other people who were staying awake with me. It was nice.

After I finished my short story at like two or three in the morning, we watched the Office nonstop until like ten thirty or eleven. After that we went out to get doughnuts at King Doughnuts. Old-fashioned maple doughnuts. Seventy cents of deliciousness.

Next was a shower. Not only did this help me stay awake, it was needed. Enough said.

Then we all met up again and we did homework/I worked on writing a children's book. I didn't get as far as I wanted, but I will be done by the time I leave school.

I don't even know where the time went, but it was a lot of fun staying up with everyone, we hung out and watched a lot of the Office, which was the closest I got to sleeping. There were only four out of the original eight who made it all the way, the other four fell asleep during the Office or for no reason whatsoever, except maybe lack of sleep.

We went to dinner which everyone was awake for, although it would have been hilarious if someone fell asleep at dinner.

Then me and my friend Lauren went to church. I was awake for all of it, but I had to make sure Lauren stayed awake. She did, but she almost fell asleep a few times.

We ended the night with Midnight breakfast. My school hold breakfast the night before finals from ten to midnight, I got some chocolate pancakes and it was awesome.

Then I finally went to sleep. It was a nice day. :)

Just a side note. My finals three finals today went pretty good, not amazing, but pretty good. I think I got a C in piano, but who cares about that class, hopefully an A in Creative Writing, and I think I got a B in Psychology, and if I did then I get a B+ in the class, but if I am lucky enough to have gotten an A then I think I get an A- in the class, which would be awesome. Four finals down, two to go. :)

Jessica (AJ) - The Best Advice

It's finally December! Sorry Heaven, but yes, I'm one of those that enjoy the cold weather. There are cosy blankets to look forward to and hot cocoa, people to huddle in circles with, and winter break!

So I've just recuperated from some horrific massive studying for my last and final Chem midterm and Wushu belt testing. Saturday, I decided to let myself relax just a little bit. I just came back from a day of filming with a couple of friends at some abandoned military building ... yes, it sounds slightly dangerous and is a bit on the trespassing side of things. However, it looks like a genuine scene and our worst case scenario(avoiding police) did not occur so, everything went well. Never had I wanted to have taken photography in high school more. My friend Sue and I only had about 10 minutes to learn all the info about shutter speeds, light, exposure, ect. then off to the set. Although it was crew work, such as audio, props, and I happened to end up as stunt double for trials, it was amazingly fun. We shot about 10 scenes for an action movie trailer and ended with a just-for-fun photoshoot. And everyone discovered that I had a rather menacing glare- but I guess you guys all know about that already. ^-^ I'd love to post pictures, but unfortunately I don't have the camera that took them.

The rest of my Saturday was spent going to a Wushu banquet to celebrate the end of the semester and almost the end of testing. Naturally, we had dinner at a Chinese restaurant. My fortune said.

" Your closest friends will give you great advice this week."
I plan to find you people online very soon.

The rest of the evening was spent at Yogurtland where I bought my largest cup of frozen yogurt yet- worth $5.65 and came with a free T-shirt for my efforts. And Wushu, eventually watching the Kung Fu video footage from the 50's and 70's when they had amazing forms and kung fu moves. There's one form where they teach their children :
1 - Break rocks over their heads.
2 - Lie under a sheet of long wood with 72 iron boxes placed over this wood and still survive.
3- Bend and break a spear using the throat.
4- Use their son's head to crack walnuts.
They have animals forms like eagle, serpent, tiger, dog, mantis and monkey, but also drunken fist, duck and that one I mentioned above, which are crazy and unbelievable.

The whole thing is quite epic. I would really like to show it to you if I have a chance. This was my Saturday so far. I want to wish that every weekend would be so eventful but still, this is Berkeley. Schoolwork always comes first and my main priority is to finish an essay by Thursday, and review for my Chemistry, Music and Math finals. I shall see how much I can accomplish when I truely set my mind to it. Let these two weeks be productive as I study for finals; my reward, we'll reunite for a nice, long, relaxing winter break.
I'll see everyone soon!

I have my next semester's schedule hopefully, I'm taking:
- Organic Chem w/ 5 hours of lab and discussion
- Asian American Studies- English
- Music Theory
- Calculus 2
- Wushu
- Erhu
- Chinese

Heaven: December... Again

God, I hate this weather. It's cold. It's dark outside. It will be wet. I wish everything could be warmth and sunshine all the time. But you know how it goes. I start complaining about the weather and the bird migrations. I get sad and depressed. I start thinking-- scratch that-- I start brooding. I know that you all are fans of fog and rain and clouds, jumping in puddles and the whatnot, but it's just not for me.

I'm in for another long winter.

Anna: ringringringringringringring.....

I have myself an idea.

To get myself out of this three month long rut of depression I've been in, I'm going to try something new (besides therapy, which I'm still waiting for). Many times when I walk around I see odd/interesting/entertaining posters, people, and grafitti. I figure if I take pictures of these or write them down somewhere and save them, I can look over at them later and smile. The same idea goes for newspaper articles and comics. I'm going to start a little scrapbook, if you will, or a collage of this stuff. I think it'll be good. It'll be a little MLIA all the time.

By the way, I chose my classes for next term. I'm taking Sustainability again (its a year long class), German 202, Japanese 102, and Psychology as a Social Science. Four classes. 18 credits. I wanted to try to get a job next term too to earn some money to pay for school in the spring. I don't know why I do this to myself. I also realized that when teachers release their lists of books needed, I'll still be in California. Which means unless there's an act of God, I'm buying all my books from the bookstore at full price.

But I don't want to depress myself tonight. I'll try to stay calm and end Thanksgiving on a good note. But really though, thank God for creativity. And senses of humor.

Eric: It's a weird job...

hey grammar... DEFY!

I don't need a lot of things, but those things do help a lot when the time comes around that I could use them.

I'm not your typical student, let alone your typical person.

I've beaten my body up to the point where my bones aren't strong enough to withstand a good size jump. I won't break my legs or anything, but I ALWAYS feel it in the morning. Then, of course, there's my Orville Redenbacher pop walk... I can't walk around with sounding like movie-ready popcorn half the time. :/

I'm a failure in a lot of senses, it's too bad none of them matter then i might list them... but since they don't... i won't.

i'm not without a conscience. I'll lie awake for hours knowing that by doing even the most minuscule thing, i ruined someone's day.

i can't stand will ferrel.

where is all this leading to?

pretty much my vendetta to save the world... not from will ferrel.

i wonder if i could stand being the world's most hated man :o

just a query...

how am i going to save the world you might ask?

with a splash of 5150.

:P

Anna: "When you grow up, your heart dies"

So I felt like I should update everyone on my life, and seeing as how I don't want to explain this ten thousand times.....

I made an appointment for a counselor today. So hopefully, if everything works out, I'm going to start going to therapy. Why? Because I need it. I've needed it for years. Its a shame that I only realized last night how fucked up I really am. So hopefully I can get some help and quit feeling so depressed and borderline suicidal all the time.

My first appointment isn't until December 10, the last day of finals, which is nerve-wracking. I'm counting on next weekend's retreat to keep me going for the rest of November before I go into the session and then come home for Christmas.

But besides that. I have yet to start my homework for this weekend, because my emotional breakdown came at such a perfect time as to render me incapable of feeling motivation for anything. I'm counting on making a sad effort tomorrow to get stuff done for Monday. Of course this is when I have a big project due in my Sustainability class.

I would like to make a huge shout-out to Heaven here, because if it weren't for her last night I have no idea what state I'd be in right now. Thank you so much. My roommate is still blissfully unaware.

On a happier note, there's a retreat next weekend. The Leonid Meteor Shower is right after that, which I hope to God I'll be able to see (if its raining that night I might just lose it completely). And I went clothes shopping yesterday, which means another laundry-free day in my week.

Anyway, I don't have much else I want to say other than that. Can't wait to see you all at Christmas.