*EDIT: So I wrote this waay back during Thanksgiving weekend, fyi. For some reason I can't post to Blogger on my laptop. :(
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I realized I haven't posted here since August. Wow. Feels like a lifetime ago. I think it goes without saying that this term has been crazy busy for me....my entire life is comprised of running around campus trying to do ten million things at once. This weekend is the first prolonged relaxation time I've had in...a while. President of Model UN + 16 credits = insanity. AND I'M DOING IT AGAIN NEXT TERM. I don't know how to explain myself, other than I need to finish in four years. Period. I could, theoretically, take less work-intensive course loads, but I wouldn't finish all my credits in time.
I'm also seriously considering/half decided on law school. Shoot me now. And I've realized that I can't talk about my future hopes and dreams without either a) boring people to death or b) igniting a political fight. "So yeah, maritime, human rights, and humanitarian laws just fascinate me, and how about those fascist bastards in government?" Great ice breakers there.
I'm still freaking out about all my usual worries, but I've resigned myself to the fact that they just won't go away ever. Right now, I just want to focus on the last two weeks of Fall term and then spending a whole damn month in the snow wonderland of Utica NY. And by snow wonderland, I mean the warm indoors where my family is. Seriously, I have no idea what to do with snow. I've only ever been exposed to about 2 inches at a time.
I'm listening to Band of Horses right now, and I'm having one of those moments where I just ask myself, "HOW is it possible for such beautiful fucking music to exist??" Know what I mean?
Also, I miss you guys. Since I'm not there for Thanksgiving (nothing new) and won't be for Christmas (sadface), I wanted to leave a little blurb to let you know that I am still active on this blog, and I love you guys and I do like sharing mundane details about my life with you. Like how I'm officially tired of Portland, and a good portion of the West Coast in general. I've got this thing where I get restless after a couple years and need to move on. Going on year three here, I need to leave. All I'm seeing is the negative about this place. But that's another discussion for another time, I guess.
I hope you guys had a good Thanksgiving and will have a fantastic Christmas.
Love.
Friday, November 25, 2011
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Zach: I like 2 am... well almost three
So.
I'm up late. For no reason whatsoever. I even convinced Lauren to go to church at 10 in the morning with me because we shouldn't spend all morning sleeping. Boy was I stupid.
I actual thought that I might go to sleep when I got back to my apartment at midnight. Then I remembered that I have a computer, and the internet exists.
So I have been watching youtube for hours, and then spent time editing videos both for myself and for other people. This is because I have become really fascinated by vlogging. That's not really true though. I am not fascinated. I just really want to do it. I think it would be a whole lot of fun. So I'm going to.
I've already got a youtube and all kinds of stuff. I'm just gonna start vlogging. Which I am sure I am gonna feel pretty stupid doing it at first, because heck, I'm just gonna be recording myself talking to, well, me. But I figured that I have so much fun leaving videos to other people, and I have so much fun watching videos of other vloggers, that I might be able to do this.
But yes. I think I am going to vlog.
In other news:
School is pretty easy this year. I feel like I'm not doing anything because, well, I'm not really. I go to classes, and I turn in assignments(most of them anyway) but I am taking a super easy class load, and there isn't much homework (although I should be practicing my clarinet which I'm not because I am dropping clarinet next semester and switching to percussion).
Social things are going okay I guess. Some people think I am a control freak attention whore because I like to plan parties and I don't let people help clean up because hey, you're a guest and shouldn't have to do any work (but this is actually a fairly long story about how I hate how inconsiderate people are and because of that I come across as a control freak attention whore douche-bag apparently). But that is just a tiny portion of my social life right now. Everything is pretty good in general. Some friends transfered away this semester, which has been sad, especially in the case of my friend Tim because he is awesome and I don't think that he is having that great of a time where he is right now and is struggling, but I try to get him up here to hangout and relax some times. And then Kirsten is studying abroad right now and I really miss her. We spent a lot of time together over the summer and I want to see her again soon, but I have to wait until January :(.
Andrew and I broke up. Kinda. I think. We were never officially boyfriend and boyfriend. We both liked each other and we went on a few dates. But Andrew decided he wasn't ready for a relationship. He has been feeling really homesick and he thought there was too much change going on in his life, especially having never dated a boy before. The reason I say that we kinda broke up though is because it's been a week (two weeks?) And no one really knows. We have told a few people (like 4), but everyone else still thinks that we are going out. I am hoping that this means that we might get back together soon, but if not that's okay too (Although I obviously would prefer to be with him). (Also no one [Mostly Anna and Jessica L] be mad at him. He is awesome and we still spend a lot of time together, even just one on one time, and I do think that we might get back together, we just need to take things a lot slower [not that things were moving that quickly before, we were just at a holding hands and falling asleep on each other when we sat next to each other on the couch stage])
This is getting rather long. And I didn't really mean to tell you guys about Andrew. But. Yeah.
Starting a vlog.
Talk to you soon
I'm up late. For no reason whatsoever. I even convinced Lauren to go to church at 10 in the morning with me because we shouldn't spend all morning sleeping. Boy was I stupid.
I actual thought that I might go to sleep when I got back to my apartment at midnight. Then I remembered that I have a computer, and the internet exists.
So I have been watching youtube for hours, and then spent time editing videos both for myself and for other people. This is because I have become really fascinated by vlogging. That's not really true though. I am not fascinated. I just really want to do it. I think it would be a whole lot of fun. So I'm going to.
I've already got a youtube and all kinds of stuff. I'm just gonna start vlogging. Which I am sure I am gonna feel pretty stupid doing it at first, because heck, I'm just gonna be recording myself talking to, well, me. But I figured that I have so much fun leaving videos to other people, and I have so much fun watching videos of other vloggers, that I might be able to do this.
But yes. I think I am going to vlog.
In other news:
School is pretty easy this year. I feel like I'm not doing anything because, well, I'm not really. I go to classes, and I turn in assignments(most of them anyway) but I am taking a super easy class load, and there isn't much homework (although I should be practicing my clarinet which I'm not because I am dropping clarinet next semester and switching to percussion).
Social things are going okay I guess. Some people think I am a control freak attention whore because I like to plan parties and I don't let people help clean up because hey, you're a guest and shouldn't have to do any work (but this is actually a fairly long story about how I hate how inconsiderate people are and because of that I come across as a control freak attention whore douche-bag apparently). But that is just a tiny portion of my social life right now. Everything is pretty good in general. Some friends transfered away this semester, which has been sad, especially in the case of my friend Tim because he is awesome and I don't think that he is having that great of a time where he is right now and is struggling, but I try to get him up here to hangout and relax some times. And then Kirsten is studying abroad right now and I really miss her. We spent a lot of time together over the summer and I want to see her again soon, but I have to wait until January :(.
Andrew and I broke up. Kinda. I think. We were never officially boyfriend and boyfriend. We both liked each other and we went on a few dates. But Andrew decided he wasn't ready for a relationship. He has been feeling really homesick and he thought there was too much change going on in his life, especially having never dated a boy before. The reason I say that we kinda broke up though is because it's been a week (two weeks?) And no one really knows. We have told a few people (like 4), but everyone else still thinks that we are going out. I am hoping that this means that we might get back together soon, but if not that's okay too (Although I obviously would prefer to be with him). (Also no one [Mostly Anna and Jessica L] be mad at him. He is awesome and we still spend a lot of time together, even just one on one time, and I do think that we might get back together, we just need to take things a lot slower [not that things were moving that quickly before, we were just at a holding hands and falling asleep on each other when we sat next to each other on the couch stage])
This is getting rather long. And I didn't really mean to tell you guys about Andrew. But. Yeah.
Starting a vlog.
Talk to you soon
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